Define "control freak"

I cannot stand that it's out of my control...
If I want something (within reason) I get it.  I work harder or I save money or I reach out to the people who can help me.  I make plans, I rearrange my schedule, I give up something to gain something else.  I'm not inflexible.  I can wait or sacrifice or think outside the box. (as long as I've just had coffee)  But now I'm realizing that there is absolutely no way to control this.  Yeah yeah I know, nothing is in our control, just let things happen and everything will fall into place and it will all be the way it's supposed to be....blah blah blah...I tried that this winter...I lay on the couch watching The Bachelor with chocolate and wine and nothing happened  to make "everything fall into place the way it's supposed to be"  My pants got tighter.  The Bachelor ended.  Thank God baseball started.
Get this....after deleting every email that came in from the Plenty of  Whackos dating website I'm on,  I spent a good part of last weekend organizing my sock drawer. Yep that's right...my sock drawer.  I paired them off and sorted them by color and type.  I threw out panty hose with rips and holes that I "saved" to wear with long skirts. wtf? My sister gave me this great tip...pair off your socks and pin them together...leave the pin on when you wear them, then pin them  again when you take them off to wash them and you won't won't lose them!!! So brilliant!!!
I actually looked forward to doing this.  It was #1 on my list of things to do for the weekend.  I put on music and sorted and pinned and tossed...so creepy right?   When I was done I felt so proud of myself for finishing and doing such a beautiful job. It was so gratifying to open the drawer and see all that neatness and orderliness...just how I like things to be.  Like a serial killer who lines up all the mementos from his victims.  :-)
No, I really don't think I have control issues.